在英國的第三天

今天是來到英國的第三天。好不容易終於把時差調了過來。現在，生理時鐘首度和北愛爾蘭人同步調。很好。

小安和Uncle Stan試了好久才將我常用的 無蝦米及微軟支援的中文等軟體安裝好。謝謝他們; 能在異國裡用自己熟悉的語言再度回到部落格發聲，so sweet!

之後會慢慢放上更多在英國拍的照片至我的相片連結(一生的回憶—Picasa)。請大家不要錯過喔。

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Sex and the City 觀後感

I can barely recall when was the last movie made me tear and laugh, laugh then tear some more in the theatre. Glad this time we made it there for Sex And the City.

I was only reading the newspaper about how popular this used to be TV programme movie. Andrew thought it might be interesting just to see from something on a TV box becoming onto big screen. Turn out it’s a very good one. I personally LOVE it. Now I understand why it would once again hit so many people’s heart as they go realistic and, of course, more dramatic as a necessity part in any successful movie. In the beginning I was mainly aiming at the fashion show in it, later on I couldn’t help it being drown into the twisted bit plot about Carrie and Mr. Big. In the nutshell it’s better than I ever expected but somehow it’s still quite within my inner thought. However, I still wonder, would anyone ever be able to find such a long term solid bond relationship in this society? I don’t know if it’s just me, or to other people too-- has this movie represented something all the lonely people in the universal always desire? Something we call “A friend in need, is a friend indeed.” True friendship—does this invisible thing still exist on the planet or it has just gone long time ago into extinction with those dinosaurs? I hope one day I will be able to find out the answer.

MY REFLECTION

要了解別人不容易 要清楚自己的個性有時更加困難。很多時候 我們都需要別人好意地提醒我們自己的flaws。

從小就喜歡閱讀的我，常常會在書中看到別人生命中不同的過程和經歷。或許是因為這樣，當我透過文字感受到別人的喪親/友之痛當下才來感嘆為何在當初還有機會向親友表達心中的愛時，那人卻不幸已羽化昇天。於是，我慢慢自我訓練，時常告訴並提醒自己--愛，要及時說出來。

相信這點在我身邊的親密親友都能多少感受到。 然而，在這麼多年後的身體力行，我今天一早，竟赫然發現到自已，最大的弱點，竟是當我遇到人與人之間不愉快的事情時，我竟然就像本文中的圖片--如駝鳥般地選擇逃避。

往往遇到人際關係上衝突之後，我常常選擇沉默不語。我會將自己當下的情緒壓下來，自己生悶氣，或是向不相干的人抱怨，不過，這常常就像是個活火山，每一次的不悅，都一次次在內心一點一滴的堆積，漸漸地，日積月累下來加上本身個性上的鑽牛角尖 ，finally，情況就跟英文的諺語一樣 "The straw that breaks the camel's back(一根稻草壓垮了駱駝)"，一些小事順理成章地成為導火線，"碰!" ~~!! 整個人就成了 "火山大爆發" 。一下子之間，傷害的，全都是身邊的人。

幸運的是，身邊的人，常常在事後會適時的狀況下告訴我哪裡做錯了，讓我有機會改進。

火山爆發後，期待能像隻浴火鳳凰--自我重生。

我的私人渡假村

出發到歐洲的前兩個星期 ，我和小安決定回家看看家人和朋友。

一開始是我的好朋友，Landy不計遠程+迷了路從虎尾下班後直接到嘉義接我們回家吃中飯。媽媽一如往常，準備了好多道色香味俱全的菜等著我們。大家很滿足地吃著飯，也很開心地一邊聊天。之後約莫三點許，在Landy 離開不久後，Edward & Ina 也風塵樸樸來到。這時候起 我們就開始拍起玩起自拍來…

多人玩自拍，真的很好玩。我們拍了好多不同的的角度及組合。小安到最後就覺得累了，問我們為什麼台灣人這麼地愛拍照。我說呀，沒辦法嘛，因為，大家都想有個 "十秒鐘主角"的快感。而且，照片，是現在不拍起來，之後就沒有得看的東西，照片不是只有相機的純綷功能而己，她們代表的，是當下的心情及時代的轉變，and，七彩的記憶。

到了晚上，之前教書的同事，Heidi 也來找我們敘舊。即將當媽媽的欣妹也協同妹婿-強仔回來，一天之間，看到這麼多的親友真的很棒。

我知道，我將帶著滿滿的親友之愛，飛往歐洲，飛往未來，飛向幸福。

Arguments I hate

Starting from yesterday morning, people around me have been involved in fights. It started with my colleagues and the "Big Boss' fighting about personal issues. Then, the minute I stepped into the office this morning, I heard some really loud shouting in a small private meeting room. It was some other colleagues ganging up on one another. Then a storm erupted outside, just like it had done in the office...

Things are just getting more and more complicated as there are so many different nationalities in the office. No one really likes each other and the best way to stay safe seems to be to preemptive strikes, which is not my thing. People are wearing masks in front of one another. Gee, it's just a complicated circle and I really do NOT want to get myself involved as this would never sort out the office problems.

Or, maybe, it's about time I should change my environment. Thankfully, the UK is coming soon!

現代的新聞

近來聽到一些人說，他每天過得很快樂，而快樂的原因就是，他們家裡沒有電視，也不看報紙，同樣的，也不聽新聞。道理很簡單--每天的媒體都不停地報導著負面 的消息，不是油價狂漲，股市慘綠，攜子燒炭，名人八卦，再不就是群體抗議等人禍及天災。大家來想想，在近年來，有什麼真正的新聞，是大家真的覺得具有新聞價值，且同時能有教育意義呢?

P.S."新聞"英文的是 "NEWS"，這個字是怎麼來的呢? N-North(北), E-East(東), W-West(西), S-South(南). 沒錯~! NEWS 的意思就是指 "來自四面八方的消息", 很妙吧。^_^

生活中的徵兆

下午去拜訪客戶時，習慣性會打開收音機聽 ICRT。結果…今天就很巧地，竟然聽到近兩年前我在狂減重時每天都會跟著MTV跳著一個小時的歌曲--N'SYNC-IT'S GONNA BE ME (超級男孩--非我莫屬)…有興趣的朋友，可以到 www.youtube.com 去找出這支歌曲的MTV…當時在雲林任教的我，真的就靠這首歌，在五個月內瘦下了十來公斤，也替我獲得我哥哥的台幣五千元置裝費。

好漢不提當年勇，好女不說當年瘦。聽到了這首歌，我當下就覺得，這一定是個好徵兆。為什麼呢? 因為，我己很少很少聽到在廣播上聽到這首歌。上次聽到，也早己是2006下半年的事了。那，到底是什麼好徵兆呀? 答案是~~我會再度瘦下來…在過年前再瘦下來…但這次，一定要慢慢瘦，健康地瘦…不能再讓自己的身材像 balloon一樣，忽大忽小… 粉不健康，衣服也粉不好買… 加油，Jing, 妳一定可以再瘦下來的!

其實之後還陸續聽到我學生時期常常會聽的歌曲。其它像 : Spice Girls(辣妹合唱團)，BSB(新好男孩)，Hanson(韓氏三兄第)，Britney Spears( 小甜甜布蘭妮)等，當下讓我對於學生時期的時光懷念不己; 大大的smile也在我的兩頰間展開來; 是呀，想到那時在國中時期，我總是會在半夜的時候，拖著兩個幼小的妹妹陪我敖夜看辣妹的電視特集，一直到妹妹們真的受不了睡意了，節目也播完了我才甘心去睡 (可憐的小妹妹呀!!); 高中時就換瘋"新好男孩"，他們出道後前四張專輯，我每一首幾乎都會唱，有很多的英文單字，也是從中獲得，一直到現在還是不會忘記呢; 還有還有，高中時期，我們有一位美術老師都會用自製的錄影帶上課，內容不外乎是美術相關的內容，但他有一點很妙，就是他都會在課程中插入一些時下年輕人喜愛的音樂錄影帶( BSB-I WANT IT THAT WAY; Britney Spears- Baby Hit Me More Time... etc..)，那時，每個星期上課，看 MTV就變成了最大的期待與享受, 為當時飽受升學壓力的我們找到一個娛樂的出口。

其實，現在常聽的音樂也不是這麼的 young了，這時，我才驚覺，原來，我對音樂的 taste，竟也不知不覺隨著我的 age　在無形中有了變化。我己不再是個花樣年華的少女，聽的音樂也漸漸轉為古典或　vocal…

　為何，我們總是比較能一眼看穿別人的變化，而非自身的呢？

友誼之日

上星期日高中同學 Luisa 請我和小安吃婚前飯…去了明誠路上的一家日式炸豬排店 就在三個人享受著美食的同時，我和 L 往日情懷的友情，也在食筷杯擺動中再次浮現…

之後小安說要先回家 讓我們兩個小女子好好擁有婚前的 girl time。這時…兩個小女生會做什麼呢??? 當然，就是去~~ 蝦~拼~囉!!!

一開始，我們決定先到A+1 幫小安買擋太陽的袖套，然而，大家都知道，女人最大的共通點就是 --蝦拼的功力--所以在我買到小安的物品之前，我們就己經在籃子裡放滿了不少其它物品了…

之後我想帶 L到 富民路上一家甜點專賣店買東西，結果，很巧地，他們當天並沒有營業。所以，我們就轉戰到 iROO…想不到兩個女生，從出大太陽時間進去，提著大包小包的戰利品出來時…竟然天己經黑了!!我們真是太厲害了，我想! 之後我們也忘了要吃飯，一直逛到八點多，L 提議去找個可以聊天的地方敘舊。

十年的友情，中間不是太常聯絡的我們，聊著彼此的工作，生活，過去，當下及未來。之後不得不說再見，是因為怕趕不上最後一班的捷運。

感性的時刻及難得的友情片刻，真的讓我很感動

友情萬歲~~!! 謝謝妳 Luisa ，我真心的好朋友。

人與人之間的關係

人和人之間的關係

就像是雪冬裡取暖的人們和火爐的關係一樣吧

太遠時 感受不到溫暖

太近了 不小心就容易燒燙傷
而傷口就算痊癒了 也一樣會留下疤痕

只有適當地保持距離 才會有剛剛好的暖度 也才能避免傷害的造成

生活中的壞習慣

常常外食的我們，有時難免也買杯飲料…而我，從古之今就有個不好的習慣，每次喝不完的飲料總是會捨不得丟掉，總是想說帶回家之後把它喝完再丟…但是，往往我一回家，飲料隨手放在桌上後，就從此忘了它的存在…

這一點，我常常被小安唸…因為，東西是我帶回來的，結果，往往都放到壞掉，過了好幾天才被清掉，加上清的人有時也不是做的人…(當然也只有小安會清囉) 所以，今天我一回到家，看到我電腦桌上前幾天留著的飲料瓶身上貼著如上圖的 POST- IT ，仔細一看，才發現，是小安的黑色幽默…內容大致如下" Oh my, I can't believe I'm still here...please put me in the recycling!中譯: 天哪，我真不敢相信，我還被置放在這裡，請趕快將我放到回收桶吧!"

好啦，我現在就幫它洗香香，讓它長眠於資源回收桶吧~! *^_^&*

歐洲日~倒數十八天

再十八天…就要坐上飛機 飛到地球的另一瑞，見未來的公婆及小安的家人;一個月後回來時，我也就不再是一個人…而是 安夫人…

前前後後的文件準備，從頭到尾一個人弄(當然，還有麻煩身在中部的Daddy & Mummy幫我跑戶政事務所)…雖然很累很麻煩，當中也生了很多悶氣…但也著實學到了不少東西。
學會了什麼是出生證明書的申請，要先送公證處再送到外交部驗證才會是有效文件等。幸好結婚簽證在跑了南北兩分處後也順利發下來 ; 婚戒也在前兩天寄到，經典脫俗的外形，比我們預期地更好; 現在就趕快將要註冊結婚的文件寄回英國 再把行李準備好就差不多了…

北愛爾蘭 I AM COMING S-O-O-N~~!!!

超down 的一天

今天的心情連著昨天及前天加上大前天…我也忘了我從何時就心情低落了起來…一直 high不了…

前天晚上在等小安下班的同時，我就想說再看一遍 "慾望城市"，或許可以讓自己大哭一場…這樣一來，哭地累了 也就可以好好入睡，將所有的不悅讓大雨沖刷到大鴻溝裡… 結果…可能是看了太多遍了…竟然只有小滴幾顆淚珠…並沒有預期地大哭…唉…想不到，要大哭有時也這麼困難

所以，低落的情緒就一直在心裡不斷地累積…終於…今天早上出門在車上就大哭了…聽到了大學時代好朋友的聲音…我就止不住地大哭…一直哭…連車都沒辦法開…就只好緊急地在路旁停下來…先好好的發洩一下自己的情緒…

電話另一頭的朋友 狠狠地被我嚇了好大一跳…不停問我到底發生了什麼事…我只顧著哭…也說不出話…

說不上來到底是出了什麼錯…幾乎每一次小紅莓要來之前 我都會戲劇化地演出一場內心戲…心情常常高低不一…

當女人 真的好累…

或許是因為每天上班時在大太陽底下奔波很累…下大雷雨時一個人開車很害怕…同事間的無情和冷漠讓我心很冰…打電話回家給媽媽時 想和她閒聊 她卻說她想去睡覺 讓我覺得很受傷…一個人在異鄉沒有其它親密的好友讓我沒有覺得融入當地感…

大哭完之後 到了客戶那 我只能戴著太陽眼鏡和他們說話…不大有禮…但是 至少我在處理別人的事情之前 我先處理了我自己的情緒

再過十九天就是歐洲日了…加油，趕快讓自己回復到正常的心態…還有 小紅莓呀小紅莓 快來吧~

Summer Breeze

With the humidity and the heat going higher and higher, there’s no doubt, the summer is back. Personally, I like summer. One of the biggest reason is that I can go to the gym and just sweat, Sweat, SWEAT. YEAH~ After April 14, I'll be working for my current company for a year. It's easy to work for ONE year in this company since there are always so many events going on each day. Sometimes a Filipino gets injured so I have to visit the hospital with them for 3 days in a row. There are always new and old workers coming and going. One day I’ll have to take someone to the labour centre because they are leaving ahead of schedule or some new employees arrive so I have to take them for immigration to get their ARC (Alien Resident Certificate). Monthly meeting is just everyday work.

How to mend a broken heart

How do we correct/ undo a mistake? I know how to fix a paper work mistake is as simple as spending more time on it. Yet, for a passed experience which one hopes had not happened, what can I do to LET GO of the sadness and walk out of the darkness towards that sunny hopful light?

I’ve been getting more and more used to with driving my company owned minivan, I overheard a radio station doing a Taro mind game and they said they could offer advice, via selecting a card they offered over the airwaves. So I did. Then, I had to find out the real reason why I was neglecting going to Europe for my wedding.

It's all because of my past has been haunting me. I have been carrying all this baggage around. And I was not even aware of what I was doing to myself. All the excuses and reasonable reasons now all seem absurd.

Past, what a past.

Tears weeping, weeping tears... Now as fresh and reborn as I can be, I feel really alive.

Yes, I am alive.

Europe, wait for me, I will be there in late July 2008!

So my VISA4UK is here....

So we’ve spent the past months running around gathering from paperwork for our wedding date; from having documents sent from the UK to TW (applications forms, booking forms and Andrew's birth certificate) to making dozens of phone calls and countless e-mail. Not only that, but I had to negotiate with my bosses to get a month off as well as make two trips to the visa office; first in Kaohsiung, then an interview at the headquarter in Taipei on June 13. The interview was mainly about going there to show these people that we have enough evidence to prove that we have not just met right before our big day and to prove that, even after we are married, we will still be together. So, we this time offered them our house lease and both of our working contract. We also prepared quite a few of our Google chat dating back in August, 2006. They photocopied the first two items and left out the chatting ones. Guess they are not too interested in being nosy of other people's "casual talks".......Anyway, hew....finally…I got my passport last night—AND IT HAS A LOVELY NEW MARRIAGE VISA IN IT!!

Karma

So, the other day Sharon Stone commented that what happened in Shi-chuan, China, was totally the Chinese government's karma. She suggested that the earthquake happened because of their cruel policies and that's why they now needed to suffer and take all the consequences. Ge... what's karma then?

People mostly believe that if we do something good, we will have good deeds returned to us in one way or another. On the other hand, suppose anyone did something evil, then that event one day will come back and kick that person's ass. However, how do we know what karma comes back when they do come back? What signs can we judge/tell IT IS WHAT IT IS?

A lot of people in Asia tend to believe to become a good person – even a highly successful person - they not only have to rely on their own efforts but also their ancestors. So they burn lots of good incense and paying tribute to both them and the Gods.

Karma is a complex yet simple word to be thinking and talking about.

Power v.s Belief

People tend to say that "BELIEF IS POWER". Yet, I have a question. Do we have belief first so there's a power or, do we have power in the beginning so we started to believe in it? Yeah, a tricky question. It's like, did we have eggs before chickens or chickens exited ahead of eggs?

Funny thing

I have been feeling depressed since last night. My fiance said it's because of "Sunday blue". It detained till a couple hours ago. Then the minute I tuned in to ICRT. I realized this thing I lacked was "M-U-S-I-C"‧

Music has started my day. my working days....I’ve been feeling depressed since last night. My fiancé said I’ve got the"Sunday blues". And it didn’t let up until a couple hours ago. Then the minute I tuned in to ICRT and I realized the thing I was lacking is "M-U-S-I-C”. Music has kicked started me week!